yea, same here. super angry and it gets me into wayyy too many messes (with people who care, etc.) working on it, sorta.
there has to be a reason for your pain. i can feel it. the only sucky thing is that it takes a long time to discover these reasons. still haven't found mine. but i guess that's why we're here.
haha, the fear thing: me too. you're not weird. i always thought i was weird. ANYWAY, i read your other entries. love them. you dont have to be like your father. stuff happens. we're placed with sh*tty situations, and people are in our lives who we wish were not. but it all has to have some explanation, right? some reason. i can't say i can relate to you totally, but we can still relate. every person in the world relates somehow, to someone else. sorry for the rambling tidbit, but...just know we can talk. if you want. im not judgmental or anything, and i can't necessarily "fix" you, but still. im here
